I am really enjoying discovering like-minded blogs and reading all about your lives. It really does help knowing we are not alone dealing with this obsession. The thing is, I'm noticing everyone's highest weights, and their current weights, and I'm nervous! Nervous because it makes me think that mostly everyone else is already thin, and is documenting their journey to ultra-thin. I am not thin. I will be thin, but I am not currently thin. I am by no means a whale (although sometimes being tall translates into being big), but I do have a ways to go. My numbers are shocking to some people. My current weight may seem like an enormous number, but on my 5'11" frame, it seems to even out. I don't know. I guess I'm just wishing I were already thinner, as it seems the rest of you are, but I suppose I shouldn't freak the geek out. I have to remember that I am new to this whole blogging thing (this is literally my SECOND day). I have been at lower weights before and struggled with this for a long time, but this is the first time I am reaching out, exposing myself, and connecting with a community of girls with similar stories. I have restricted, obsessed, counted, and controlled in the past, but my current weight has resulted in a self-hatred far too overwhelming. This blog marks my decision to get thin once and for all. I just cannot keep being fat. It restricts my entire life. This time, I will win. This time, I will be thin.