Saturday, October 17, 2009

10.17 daily totals.

orange juice : 150 calories
3 brown rice cakes : 210 calories
tablespoon of peanut butter : 100 calories
low-fat yogurt : 150 calories
total : 610 calories

I hate that 600 calories is a lot to me. 500 is good. 300 is better. 100 is great. 0 is fantastic. Negative 600, that's what I want. Bahhh!!! I guess 610 isn't that bad, is it?

I feel like these first few weeks of October have inched by. I'm looking forward to reaching the end of this month, and then on to November! Hey, FAT, hurry up and get to gettin'!

With love, kk

1 comment:

  1. hey
    i stumbled along your blog whilst looking for pictures of Chanel Iman. After reading a bit, i felt a bit sad for you, you seem to be struggling alot.

    i think you need to know that you can lose weight and live a happy and healthy life without hurting yourself. I deperately hope that you are not buying into an eating disorder to try and achieve your dream.

    Because it wont work, bulimia will make you gain weight because you body already processes the sugar consumed before you can regurgitate it. And unless you want to be anorexic for the rest of your life, if you starve and then eat you will send your body into a cycle of weight loss and gain, making you even more unhappy.

    It isn't fair for you to compare yourself to supermodels, because in reality they are naturally like that and don't need to really work for their bodies. majority of the population doesn't look like that.

    What you need is to be a stable and healthy weight within your body shape. Whats meant to be is meant to be.

    A Low carb and low fat diet, no alcohol, accompanied by alot of aerobic exercise (long endurance, low intensity, like swimming and brisk walking), because aerobic exercise provides the body the oxygen it needs to burn fat.

    I hope you reach your goal, however i hope you do it in a healthy way and face your weight demons head on, because trust me, if you continue to hurt yourself they will never go away.